You have it all. You've always had it all! I gave up everything so you can have it all! Leave me to my nothing. I was afraid that I wouldn't like Millie when I originally read the first chapter of this book as a preview in Ride Steady. She came across as weak and slightly whiny. Boy was I pleasantly surprised by her in Walk Through Fire. This woman is a survivor and she certainly gave as good as she got, and let me tell you, she got plenty.
There's a very clear change of pace between the first half and the second half, and for me, that transition was what ultimately brought my rating down slightly. As intense as the first half was, the second half was almost That's not to say that it was boring, but it was just such a sudden change from one to the other, that I found myself wishing for something more. I also had a tough time connecting to the fact that Millie view spoiler [hasn't been with any other man for 20 years.
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I understand their love was epic but c'mon! On the other hand considering the whys of her leaving and the way she loved High, I suppose it does make a certain kind of sense. But my inner cynic still had some trouble with this one hide spoiler ] All my favorite secondary characters make an appearance and there were plenty of great moments to go along with the emotional ones. There were only a few words in the Vocabulary of Badass but each one had a number of meanings. They included beautiful, Christ, fuck, Jesus, and shit. But the one used the most was babe.
I'd say this book divides into two halves, the first half finds Millie and High together after 20 years apart and dealing out pain to each other while attempting to deal with a love that clearly never died. The second half focuses on their rebuilding their lives together.
While I had some quibbles with the book as a whole, anything that can put me through the emotional ringer like that is worthy of at least 4 stars. I haven't had a reaction like this to a book in But we didn't walk through fire only to get to the end of that and not get our reward. If we can walk through fire, baby, we can do anything. Even at her worst her books are the best.
Not to say that this was her worst, far FAR from it. This is probably one of the most emotional books I've read by her to date. So if you're prepared for one hell of an ugly cry, step inside the world of Chaos and enjoy. ARC courtesy of publisher via Netgalley in exchange for an honest review For more reviews visit View all 56 comments.
I loved the first half two. First half was SO intense. Still a great read though: YES, you read that right. It seemed like it may be overly angsty, and I do not do overly angsty very well. They were each others one. When Millie, out of the blue ended it, and in such a way to almost destroy Logan and make him think the 3 years they had had together had been a lie.
So when Millie goes to Logan, after 20 years deciding it is time to move on and explain her reasons, Logan, and his "brothers" do not react well. And while some may have issues with this, and yes he was an ass, as were Chaos, it was understandable. Chaos had seen what it had done to High, the self destructive path he went on, and at the time did not care who he dragged along with him. Now, I have heard some rumblings about the reasons Millie having left High not being good enough, but I went through something similar myself, at an older more mature age, and still, it almost destroyed my marriage.
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I can totally see Millie, given all her and High had spent 3 years discussing and wanting, being totally unable to cope and know how to deal with it at her age and doing what she did. And while she did not move on relationship wise, she moved on in life, she had grown and matured, had a very successful business, a house she had worked on herself, but I can see her not being in a relationship, given why she forced High to walk away, her not starting a new relationship, given what she saw as her lack makes sense.
And more she did, and while the second half was not as much of an emotional roller coaster as the first half, I still loved it. It was them settling into life, the problems that can face families in that way. No horrible psycho ex!
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Plus we have the storyline ARC that has been through all the Chaos series. And this is maybe why it is 4 stars and not 5. Seems like Chaos and the bad guy have spent the entire chaos series pushing each other back and forth and not much happening. Threats here and there, and I kind of forgot exactly what had happened in previous books and my worry here is that will all come to a head in the last chaos book, and quite frankly overshadow the romance, as this storyline ARC is building and building, and it has to explode, as opposed to just petering out.
But I kind of just wish it would get done. But, I still loved reading Millie and Logan's story and cannot wait for more from this series. View all 38 comments. Jul 01, Stacey is Sassy rated it really liked it Shelves: Need green tea bags stat This story had my emotions on a rollercoaster. The devastation I was feeling towards characters that I had grown to love was starting to wear me down.
I spent a lot of time reading the first half of this story with tears pouring out of my eyes.
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It took a little longer than my hormones liked and I swear I had red puffy eyes for the first 24 hours. Bandaids needed to be applied, balms needed to be rubbed in and paracetamol needed to be given for the headaches. This was a 20 year misunderstanding, so a lot of people were touched in the fallout, some good and some bad. I liked all the different components that made up this story. Chaos men are not soft and they sometimes say and do the wrong things. We know this, but WTF was a prime example of a bunch of blokes who stick the knife in without all the facts and are then all sucky, sucky up when they realise the monumental mistake they made.
The Old Ladies and their affiliates are still causing trouble, but their hearts are in the right place. Lots of sexy times that showed a great connection that had lasted through the years. Words that touched me deeply and made up for some of the heartbreak he had caused. The Chaos series is not my favourite by Kristen Ashley, but it still holds goodness within. Own The Wind is my least favourite, and in WTF the same dumb duck, did another dumb duck move that had me gritting my teeth and shaking my head.
All good, left me on my usual KA high and gave me faith that 41 is not too old to be held up against a wall and…given the good ; To buy from Amazon - http: To see more of my reviews, fashion, food and pervathons View all 79 comments. I found one good thing, my Club. I made two good things, my babies. I'm starting to get pissed off NetGalley.
I hoped this would be Rush's book. View all 37 comments. Jan 09, Elizabeth rated it it was amazing Shelves: It is a blissful "second chance delight" which will leave you wanting more. Millie is a successful business owner who lives in a beautiful renovated house.
She has no children, no boyfriend, and not even a cat to call her own. While out one night at the local Chipotle, she sees the love of her life. After a quick eavesdropping session, she realizes that he is getting divorced, has two children, and seems to be happy. Millie has spent the last twenty years in despair over the loss of his love in her life. It was my job to make sure you had everything.
But you wouldn't let me go. You'd never let me go. When Millie breaks back into his life, he is furious. Logan might be mad at Millie but the thought of how he can seek revenge overcomes him. After a few angry tumbles between the sheets, Logan recognizes that Millie is not the same Millie that she was when they were together. Logan and Millie have twenty years worth of heart break and miscommunication to work through. Both Millie and Logan were extremely likable characters and although the heart of their plight might be a bit "heavy handed", it is delivered in a manner in which I felt it to be sincere and completely realistic.
There was no doubt in my mind that both characters were driven to the choices that they made and I enjoyed every moment of their reconciliation period. Although I questioned her choices, I admired her ability to put Logan before her own selfish needs. An additional delight in this read is the continuity in Ms.
As per KA standard, the written text is written in her own style and the characters' dialogue reflects the way they would sound when speaking. Walked through fire when I lost you. Nothin', will make me lose you. Every single KA release day feels like Christmas for me. Ashley for another amazing ride! View all 70 comments. Another exciting ride with the Chaos members. Their lives ran perpendicular to each other with him being part of an mc and her in college. But that didn't deter them because they were in love and had found their other half.
Twenty years ago something happened that made Millie walk away. Logan is totally clueless, as are the readers, to what it was that made her fall off of his radar. I know he was hurt by Millie but he treated her so poorly I wasn't sure he was going to be able to redeem himself in my eyes. They weren't those two young kids with stars in their eyes, they were older and little more jaded. Now, they're trying to fit their lives together and are running into some challenges along the way. I found one good thing, my Club But in all my life, I only earned one good thing.
Walk Through Fire has KA's signature flair that will have fans one-clicking her book. October 27, pre-order order: Jan 21, Mo rated it really liked it. Some of my recent KA books have been hit and miss for me. But this one didn't disappoint. Yeah, you have to sort of suspend the disbelief a bit with some of the scenarios but, overall, the story worked.
They fell in love at first sight and life was good, until she learned she couldn't be the woman he needed and made it so he had no choice but to Some of my recent KA books have been hit and miss for me. Logan Judd was no longer my business. Logan was an ass in the beginning of the book but he had his reasons. There were a lot of beautiful things about Logan Judd and one of them was the perfection of his dick. It was a tragedy A dream that was a lie Yeah, we had the itty, bitty descriptions that some either love or loathe. Just dive into Logan and Millie's story. Parts of it are heartbreaking.
As usual, sex scenes were HOT. Gotta love these KA men, they can it up at any time. Mo Alex is The Romance Fox wrote: Nov 06, Dec 19, Jul 06, Mysza rated it it was amazing Shelves: I love the badass heroes and smart heroines this woman creates and her stories are simply wonderful. This one no exception. It delivered a healthy amount of angst, which I crave in books. But also made me tear up few times and I'm not really cry baby when it comes to books. I love everything Chaos, It's official.
I love everything Chaos, I think it may be my favorite series from KA and after sleeping on it, this book is definitely the best in series. In fact, book hungover was so strong that I already reread favorite parts twice. Ah, just go read the book. I think partly due to the fact that main couple was in their forties.
It's nice to read about mature relationship from time to time. View all 68 comments. Sep 16, Rachel Reads Ravenously rated it really liked it Shelves: Ever since I read the blurb about this couple in the last book I have been dying to read their story, and Kristen Ashley does not disappoint. On a regular day Millie decides to get a meal from Chipotle. While there she sees her ex Logan "High" in line ahead of her, precedes to freak out, run away and falls apart.
Twenty years ago Millie and Logan had been in love, before she sent him away citing the Chaos motorcycle gang as the reason breaking both of their hearts. For the last twenty years Millie hasn't been living, she's been going through the motions and merely existing. Millie's real reason for sending Logan away is one that has haunted her the entire time, and now Millie decides she wants to tell this to Logan. Crashing a biker party, things do not go the way Millie intended, and she and Logan end up having explosive hate sex. But Logan has held onto his anger all these years for what Millie had ruined between them, and he wants nothing to do with her.
At least, that's what his head says. His body says otherwise. But you got it right. Best way to dream is to do it, then earn it, no matter how that happens. I will say from this point on, the two go through some seriously hot hate fucking and Kristen Ashley decides to play tug of war with our heart strings. Simply brilliant, my favorite part of the book. I did have a few moments like this: Too long in my opinion, but you'll have to read the book to find out and come to your own conclusions. After the halfway point new issues and hurdles are tossed the couple's way leaving them to navigate new territory for both of the MCs.
This is also where the book gets a bit sweeter and mushier which I also like.
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To be honest I don't give a hoot about the big bad they've been building up to and I tend to skim those parts. I loved the cameos of the cats in the book. It's obvious they were inspired by Ashley's real life kitten duo she's got pictures on Facebook, look it up and it made me even like cats for a little bit. But I don't like cats I'm a dog person so let's move on. Millie and Logan are what I would call a timeless Kristen Ashley couple.
Logan is a dominant man but not as much as KA hero's in the past. He's a man who lets things go when he needs to and it made him an amazing partner and father to his girls. Now while Logan is 44 and a little bit too old for me, I wouldn't kick him out of bed. And Millie was someone who suffered silently for years, I loved watching her come alive again when the love of her life came back to her. She's one of those kind hearted people that would be irreplaceable if she was in your life. She's devoted, loving and selfless and not one bit annoying at least to me.
Also, I think this book is a great example of the power of Chipotle. One trip to that restaurant and it changed the course of a couple's lives forever. So I say we all treat ourselves and get a burrito bowl from Chipotle. I'll be sitting there getting fat and waiting for my dream biker man to come in. Here are some of my favorite quotes from the book: Don't ever do that. All a' this is gonna be pain right along with pleasure.
That is, until we work through the pain and got nothin' but the good left over. And I swear to you, fuckin swear I'll get us there. Which means everyone's got the shot at receiving an endless supply of love. Don't matter who you give it to or get it from. Just matters you got a heart big enough to give it and a heart open enough to get it back. And again for a moment like I had over French toast with you and your babies.
And again and again and again, for each night I get to sleep with you. I'd do it every day it was so worth it to walk through fire for you. View all 72 comments. Jul 11, Pam rated it really liked it Shelves: Walk through Fire brings us back to Chaos, telling the love story of Millie and Logan. Logan isn't just a bike with a kick ass name, he is one hell of a sweet alpha male too, a man with always the right words to make you swoon and make you wet. He is a man devoted to his club, his kids and when it matters most to his one and only.
Millie is a woman who knows her man's worth, knows the love she can give him, and knows what it takes to give him everything he deserves and more. Making the choice of letting it all go. You love a man, you believe in him, you take him as he is. You go on his journey with him no matter what happens, even if that means you have to walk through fire.
If your looking for a story about second chances at life and love then this is a story for you The entire crew is back doing what they do best, loving and welcoming them into their family giving them all access pass to meddle. The only thing that drew me back from giving it a solid five stars is the time wasted, unable to wrap my head around the fact that they kept their space for years without ever crossing paths. It kills me to know that they had the power to bring happiness in their lives but we're kept from it.
Regardless to say it is a solid four star read for me, and in the KA rating scale it pretty much speaks for itself. Read it, you won't be disappointed! View all 55 comments. Dec 31, Jennifer Kyle rated it it was amazing Shelves: I enjoyed this installment in the series and found a whole slew of things that were total standouts in this book.
Then I sent him away. Could I right those wro 4. Could I right those wrongs? Get turned on by those hot as sin sex scenes. Laugh your ass off because my girl, Elvira is in this book. Love the various POV chapters scattered throughout the story. Hope that Deb and Keely get a book in the near future. Embrace the kidnapping scene because what would a great K. Swoon over the tattoos. Tattoos to me in stories have become pretty standard issue but K. Totally invest in a sweater dress and dream of High wearing that bandanna. Overall, a great read that brings the feels and the love, the tight brotherhood and family vibe, that only K.
View all 59 comments. Mysza Gorgeous review Jennifer babe! Totally agree, on that bandana especially, heheh. Wendy'sThoughts This was terrific and thanks for the link to additional chapter Nov 03, Never quit lovin' you in a way I know I never will. What an emotional ride, Kristen Ashley did an amazing job,she made me feel so connected to the story!
This story is about second chances,forgiveness,love,loss. Have you ever read a book that you wanted so bad the mane couple to be together???
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This is exactly what I wanted for Millie and Logan! These two deserved to be together. They have lost so many things and they needed to be back together and have their happy life together. There are many emotional and intense moments between Millie and Logan I couldn't stop myself from crying. My heart was broken for Mollie,even though I was a little pissed with her decision to keep this secret from Logan, but then I understood that she loved him so much.
More than her own life and she wanted for him to be happy! But apart from this she is also sweet,kind,strong and a good person. Logan is ugh I don't know what to say first He is so good,I love him. He is protective,funny,sweet and hot. But having you back,I find that I still forgot. This woman can write amazing stories that will touch your feelings and your soul!! You should definitely read this one and please prepare yourself and take with you tissues because you will need them!!
ARC provided via netgalley for an honest review View all 42 comments. Jun 21, Geri Reads rated it liked it. It had everything that I've come to expect from KA and so much more. The angst was delicious. I gobbled it up like candy. Then the second half came and then it lost steam. Partly because the conflict resolution was just Millie and Logan met and fell in love instantly 23 years ago.
They lived happily for three years, but then Millie, due reasons she didn't disclose to High, made an arbitrary decision of ending their relationship. It affected him so much that his brothers in the MC were worried for him. Unlike High who was able to move on, Millie was stuck in a rut for 20 years. That's a long ass time to put yourself on ice.
Fast forward to 20 years later, Millie saw High again and she wanted to make amends and explain her reasons why. But High and the club were having none of it. In fact, they went of their way to send this message to Millie. There was a scene in the book which was the turning point for me where view spoiler [Tack, Hop and the rest of boys were at this club hide spoiler ] and Millie was there.
What happened next was like a scene straight out of Mean Girls except that it's not funny and the perpetrators were grown ass middle aged men essentially putting Millie in her place by humiliating her in front of a lot of people. Apparently, "bros before ho's" is a code all bikers swear by, which I get If this had been NA and these characters are in their 20s, I would've understood their methods.
But these are bikers. The reason being put forth was that they're showing High that "they have his back," whatever the fuck that means since Millie didn't even show any sign of aggression towards him nor did she blatantly seduced High who's 45 years old, by the way. Anyhoo, Millie was feeling all this guilt because she broke up with High 20 freaking years before, and so she just took the humiliation the club dished out.
Oh, she did some flouncing. But then High finally had a come to Jesus moment which led to them getting back together again as though nothing happened. And this is where the story went downhill for me. Aside from the semi step-daughter from hell, the conflict and tension in the second half were non-existent. I partly blame Millie for shutting down whatever non-apology the club and High might have given her.
Instead, she settled for a chin lift. Despite my ranty review, I'm still giving it a three because it's KA and I enjoyed the first half. I just wish the resolution was fleshed out more. It felt uneven to me.
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I still can't get over the chin lift though. ARC provided by the publisher in exchange for an honest review. View all 63 comments. Anne Marie Completely agree! May 30, Lorena I like the first part. But I hate all the second one. I love KA but I hate Millie Jul 06, Alba and Her Secrets..
As many of you may know, Kristen Ashley is my favourite writer since I decided to read one of her books. This book is the fourth in the Chaos series and it tells the heartbreaking story between Logan "High" Judd one of the hot Chaos MC bikers and a man who has not fully lived since the love of his life left him and Millie Cross a very-sensitive but very-strong woman who made an enourmous sacrifice and she has suffered the consequences during many many years. Logan and Mellie were lovers during their twenties and had a relationship for three years.
We can see that through flashbacks and it is clear that they loved each other very strongly. However, one day, without any problems between them, Mellie decided to leave Logan. Twenty years pass, and still not knowing why she left him, Logan has married and divorced and has two children. In the contrary, Mellie is still single and without any kids. Let me tell you guys, as you could see through my status updates, I was crying my eyes out. I was hurting for Mellie and High especially for her, because he is kind of an asshole at the beginning.
KA is one of this writers that is able to make me cry everytime. So I made you let me go so you could have it all! I just love Kristen's writing, she is amazing with descriptions, with dialogue and with very-emotional and complex characters. I love how she makes is love and hate one character at the same time.
I was in the middle of the book when Mellie meets Logan's babies and well.. I am sure you understand I started hating Zadie's guts because she was so mean.. I enjoy the interactions with all the other characters and how KA gives, everytime, an amazing emotional roller coaster of a love story. So sad, sweet, hot, funny, sooooo everything!!!
I think I do not need to repeat why I loved this book it has so much love throughout my whole review! I cannot freaking wait for the next book which I been thinking about and I believe -hope- it will be about Hound, and I hope, Keely: View all 64 comments. Oct 27, Brandi rated it it was amazing. The angst, the emotion, the sweet, it was all simply perfect to me. I'll try to properly review soon. I will say, I loved High and Millie. View all 22 comments. He is yummy, isn't he ; Nov 04, It was just wonderful.
Emotional, sexy, heartbreaking and so very much like coming home. A second chance romance that hits right in the feels, makes your panties melt right from the start, badass biker and kick-ass heroine shenanigans on top. Just the right thing to make my heart melt and to make me lose a day or two of my life. Not complaining, mind you, but once I start a KA book I can never really stop.
From the first moment they met head over heels in love, made for each other and destined for a great future with a big family. That is until after three year of bliss Millie up and left High - out of the blue. Now all those years later, a chance encounter helps Millie to find the resolve to clear the air, explain her actions, make peace and to finally be able to live her life. But things aren't that easy and the first time they see each other again after twenty years of silence tensions run high and there might be some explosion of sorts. Both Millie and Logan are just phenomenal characters.
Strong willed, stubborn and kick-ass. Their history is so deeply rooted, it made the angst so much more agonizingly beautiful. I legit cried at times and that is not an easy feat to accomplish. Now I'm a sucker for second chance romance, so that was a no-brainer from the get go, but the story just worked. It's not easy sailing after their first reunion, in fact it's down right nasty. They have to work and fight for the HEA.
There is really nothing more I can say without repeating one of my gazillion other KA reviews. I love the woman and her writing. She has created my happy place on the book shelf. Alpha males who talk in one word sentences. Sassy heroines who wear LBDs, drink fruity cocktails and bake sugary goodness on the weekends.
Now excuse me while I go back and re-read Motorcycle Man Jun 06, Wendy'sThoughts rated it really liked it Recommends it for: Kristen Ashley Fans, Romance. I was so excited to receive this arc I had already been excited about an older demographic of characters Now their paths had crossed again Mix that premise with it being part of the Chaos story line Bikers, Beards and Outlaw ways This tale consists of a couple of parts These two were The Fantasy Biker Couple.
They met at a party when Millie was just Logan, 23, made this impressionable entrance; later sat next to Millie and started a conversation. It was just one of those magical moments when everything lined up perfectly Millie was strong enough to approach that concept from the beginning and it was who she was from her upbringing. She was a "Good Girl but with a bit of an edge" and her parents knew they could trust her judgement.
They saw her and her sister be these women. They gave them the support they needed to make smart decisions He never gave her family a reason to doubt his love for their daughter or concern for her care in his life. He had come from a loving family Millie was an Old Lady to the first degree. She had the spirit, the understanding of how to be with her man and most importantly, when to push back and stand for herself. These two were something to see And through the 3 years together, they talked of the family they would have And then they weren't that couple There was no future together And both were destroyed by her hand causing it He went on to be High, Logan lost forever He became the guy in the club who would ride off, hot He survived it all They held this union together until it became clear this wasn't good for any of them High is now divorced with two young daughters She focused all her energy to the business she created.
She had doubled majored in business at college and all she learned plus her work ethic and need to hide from life, made her extremely successful. She managed her money wisely; she bought a home and made it perfect. She set up her life so all she had to do was walk from her main house to the studio across the courtyard on her property and she was at work. She got dressed everyday to the nth degree She was The Party Planner in the area. And her life was empty Oh, she had moments of happiness She had her own girls from way back But Millie watched as life went by For there she heard The Voice It was close and she couldn't breathe, move or feel her extremities She slid her eyes to the side when the body of the boy grown to this man stepped up and put his order in Millie got out of the place and escaped his presence She saw him, heard him and knew she needed to talk to him What happens next was to be expected from an outsider's point of view He gave up caring, loving only his kids and they were the only thing that pulled him through the dark times and away from the destruction High closed off all feelings which mattered except for those brothers and children.
So when Millie is compelled to search him out She did not take into consideration of the fury she meets from High. She did not understand the overwhelming need inside to touch him, smell him, feel him again. She makes the move which changes all the considered plans before The results are devastating for both Confusion and anger of this resurrection are pulsating off High High will not let it stand Let the games begin.
This was the first part of the book. It was intense, it had moments too painful yet real to describe The next part was more of the lessons we as people who have lived lives must learn The damage to both parties when this type of thing happens is usually extreme and cannot be repaired. This book addresses that How do you work with what has happened to people you loved, always will love and their past lives without you. We see what a first love can be like in all its glory.
We also see what this type of love can bring when it is taken away. The truth is, it doesn't matter if it is based in a Biker world or any other All of us do some of the things Millie described in the first part of this book We think to ourselves we will order the healthy meal, start the exercise program, read the meaningful book and eat our meals off the good china Crushing, brutal doom, with mercilessly sluggish tempos for maximum horror. Still They Pray by Cough. Wade through the sonic sludge of the latest from Austin's doomiest with oozing bronze and black vinyl to match.
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